Motivation.

Things that motivate me to better myself:

• Biggest Loser. I watched the newest episode online today and cried my way through it. The kind of motivation and dedication that I see through many of those contestants is moving. I wish either Jillian or Bob was my personal trainer. Ha.
• My best friend. I'm fortunate that Katherine moved with me and lives with me. Sometimes, I KNOW I wouldn't push myself to go out and run, but she helps to motivate me. I know that we're not in the same place fitness-wise, but she's a great motivator when I need her to be. She even tries to not get mad at me when I become frustrated with myself.
• Races. Signing up for races. Thinking about registering for races. Racing. Hearing about races.
• My classes. I enjoy being a graduate student and working towards doing something big in my life. I can see things coming together.
• My job. I'm disappointed that I'm not using either of my degrees and I work someplace that I could have worked with just a high school diploma, but that helps me to be able to push myself harder. At some point, I will have a job that I LOVE. I just hope it's sooner rather than later.
• Social media. That sounds weird. But I'm motivated by blogs, my facebook friends, people on twitter. Sharing what some people are doing or are attempting to accomplish can help me to view my life in different ways. In that way, I'm learning through other people that I would not have been able to learn from ten years ago. It's amazing.
• Reading. I LOVE to learn. I can't go into a bookstore without buying a book. I have a mile long list of things that I want to read. I research everything. If I have a question, I find the answer... but I go beyond. I find every detail that I can about particular topics or ideas until I fully comprehend them.

There are more. I've been feeling frustrated with myself and not so motivated lately, but it's helpful to think about the things that DO help me to move forward.

So far: 572.65 miles
To go: 427.35 miles

Disappointed in myself.

Today and yesterday have been pretty overwhelming and a little crazy. I did end up running tonight though, which I 'm proud of. I wanted to just run one mile and push myself as hard as I could... run as fast as possible and finish with a great time.

Disappointment.

I ran as hard as I felt like I could, but at the same time, I wish I would have run harder, faster. I didn't PR, which was an important goal that I set for myself.

No excuses. I worked today, I have been feeling sort of epileptic today, I have been exhausted today. However, none of that is a good excuse. I only ran a little over a mile. I could have run faster.. ten seconds and I would have made it. Oh well.

Next time I will push myself harder.

So far: 569.63
To go: 430.37

Long run. Now sore and tired.

I'm exhausted and drained.
Usually two emotions that would convince me to lay in bed and NOT run. But I ran today. I came home from work exhausted after not sleeping well last night and I actually ran. Nobody was home to push me & I'm glad that I did it.
Today I ran further than I have since August 20. (thank you for the nice graph, Nike+) I set a few goals for myself that I didn't accomplish. I wanted to cut time off of my mile PR and ran like 6 seconds longer than my PR, which was disappointing, but at least I pushed myself.
I pushed myself very hard, which I'm okay with. I'm disappointed with the place I am in my running and with my pacing, but those are things that I have to work on in order to improve, I guess. There's not much improvement in sitting around all of the time. It's about prioritizing, I think.

Nothing impressive or thought envoking from me today. I'm too tired & I still have lots of reading to do before tomorrow's class.
Oh. & Happy Birthday to me in 45 minutes.

Goal: 568.61 miles
To go: 431.39 miles

Positivity.

I had a really tough day today. Well, class wasn't terrible, but I've been drained since I woke up and it was tough for me to even get out of bed. Then I studied some, went to class, came home... exciting.

Again, I didn't feel like running. I wanted to just go to bed. With a little push from Kath, I got out of bed and went for a run. We walked a few laps around the apartment complex, before running a few laps. I did take it fairly easy, but at the end, I did push myself a little. When I was running, I was exhausted, but I did run and I did accomplish some of my goals. I didn't quite reach the 5 miles that I wanted to run today, but I got close, which was pretty good for being in a bad mood.

After running, I used the Wii Active again. It wasn't quite as rough as yesterday, though my limbs are still a little achy from yesterday's work out. It was a little bit tough, just because I was sore, but I had more confidence and was able to push through a little bit better than I did before. I'm impressed with myself.

Tomorrow is going to be a crazy day. I have 11 hours of work ahead of me, which means that going for a run will probably not be on the radar. However, I'm going to try to get some time in on the Wii. I wish I had gym equiptment in my apartment, because the hours at the gym at my apartment complex are really inconvienent, particularly on the weekends. Oh well, though, that's something that I can work on figuring out in due time.

Anyways, today was slightly more positive, though my day was a rough one. I'm looking forward to more positivity in the future.

So far: 558.79 miles
To go: 441.21